calmness

met my dearest old fren though itz only an hour, itz most treasurable. and i thought, i'm lucky to hv known u.... itz hard to meet somebody whom are so peaceful to stay with......thank you:)

searching for inner calmness recently..... listen to myself. talk to myself. touching with my hard feelings. forginving myself.

need more calmness to overcome the complicated surroundings......

i hope i can stay with u a little longer......

got some pain in eyes. applied K-oint on eyes. itz not easy as it sticks to my fingers rather than underneath the eye lids! while itz easy to tell our patients how to do it, i don't do it well!

there was much more loving kindness in the old place......

black chai......=.=''

feels clumsy these few days......

works, complicated and applicants are disobedient......making myself frustrated and messy.....i just wanna scream!!! (but of corz in office, i could EAT only.... while i'm off work, shop only....luckily it was dance days yesterday......saved me a bit, for 4.5hrs!! cant imagine how i'll be like if i dun dance.....)

PK on the street and got some bruises with bleedimg under my knees>< luckily, itz not too bad (but i hv to define well the term 'not too bad', which means, in my dictionary, still able to walk and no hospital admission is required. it was painful that i couldnt walk for a minute, not able to roll up my trousers either>< not to mention the pain in wtever positions for the following two hours :'((((( ) good that i could use my 'princess' band-aid again:P Ha!

boiled my oral cavity with just-boiled water!! mama...... ice ice ice!! i cunt answer myself why i could hv made this mistake which is of primary-school-grade?????

itz not peaceful in office. hatred. attacks. enemy. itz a pity...... hope everyone is well......physically and mentally.

and didnt sleep well too......

stomach doesnt go well too.....

just wanna eat tonnes of chocolate.....

signs of stress emerging.....

calm calm calm please...... needa restructure myself this weekend. hv a good rest!

extinguished. but will ignite again soon:)

not surprised with ur unexcited answer as i hv preparation already.though prepared, i'm somehow feeling a bit down. itz like extinguishing my light of hope. yet, i still hv many candles ahead of me, i'm sure, that can igntie brightly~!

so, NO WORRY, my friend:)

instability within

sleepless.....

feeling unstable and irritated. need some adjustment again.....><

uncertainties.....not in my control.....

and itz the high expectation and maybe wrong interpretation of information initially, that may contribute to the dissatisfied results......

so. of the same token. be peaceful la.

New page in my life:)

flipped a new page in my life, after waving good-bye to the clinical field. mixed feeling.......

excited. like to take challenge. like to meet different people.

worried. dislike gossip.

sad. gotta leave my good friends in CMC i miss u all......

happy. i hv good friends with me in the new place to know that my friends in CMC miss me too to realize that i've met some true friends in CMC, and they're to accompany me for life:) i love you all.....

doubt. dealing with people can be complicated. more office work, more gossips

optimisstic. as usual i'm always lucky:)

mm.....要學習---處之泰然

ENJOY